Monday, June 30, 2008

Sweet Arlene

Well it's been 19 years since I've seen you smile, heard you laugh, joked with you. I miss you. I can't believe all the things that have happen since your life was taken. I wish I could say it's gotten easier, but really it hasn't. I still think about you and all the good times we shared. All that time on the phone talking about boys. clothes, and all the stuff teenagers talk about. I know that even though we can't see you, I know you were there for all of the special moments in our lives. I know you were there when Charlene, Maureen, and I got married. I know you were there when Logan and Ayden were born. I know you were. I don't know how, but I know. I will never forget you. I miss you Arlene.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Thursday Things

1. I would go to work in PJ's if I could
2. I lost my only Grandfather in 1984, I miss him everyday
3. I'm a momma's girl
4. I don't remember my mom's mother ( I wish I did)
5. I have hazel eyes

I have been very lax about taking my crazy pills lately. I don't know why. Sometimes I forget other times I just can't be bothered. I know Jeanne they can't help if you don't take them. I just don't know that they are helping anymore. I feel sad and I don't know if it's from that or the deaths that have occurred lately. It's like I can't get a handle on anything. I know I go into a kind of funk when Ray starts to hay. I enjoy it for awhile then I just get lonely without him. I rely on Kristie a lot when I get lonely, I feel sometimes that I'm a little bit of a burden. Kristie and Chelsie have plenty to do without having to babysit me. I think I need to make another appt. with the Dr. and see what he thinks. Maybe I am perimenopausal wouldn't that just suck. Oh well guess I'll have to bite and go to Dr. B.
No bear this morning I think he stayed away because it was raining.
I finished The Sugar Queen last night. I was very surprised at the ending. No spoilers here, I now know why Della Lee was in the closet. I liked it but, I still favor Garden Spells. I started Mind's Eye by Hakan Nesser. I have read his first 2. This is actually the first book in the Inspector Van Veeteren series so I'm reading the first one as a third book. Strange. I don't know why they do that. It would be helpful for them to translate books from the beginning of a series. I started Sail by James Patterson last night but, I didn't really enjoy the first couple of chapters. I either like his books or I don't no middle ground.
I hate the DMV that's all I'm saying about that.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008


I saw one this morning in the back yard. I followed him from window to window. He was quite small and looked like he might have been tagged. Beau slept through the whole sighting. Well I'll be thinking twice before I let him loose tonight.

Monday, June 23, 2008


Sunday was the unveiling of Bev's headstone. Thankfully Brian was standing next to me, he just put his arm around me and held tight. It's still so hard to believe she's gone. Ruthann gave me two of Beverly's things. One is a dome with dried flowers and a butterfly. The other is a cross stitch Bev did. I'm so touched that she thought of me. I put the dome in the living room so I can look at it everyday. The cross stitch is hanging in my den/library. Until we meet again, happy directing Bev.
Finished Sacrifice and Garden Spells this weekend. I started The Sugar Queen on the way home from Scarsdale. I didn't get that far as the road was very bumpy. I really enjoyed Sacrifice. It was a very well written mystery. I enjoyed the strength of the characters and I loved the scenery. Garden Spells was a totally different type of book for me. It deals with the mystic and a little magic. I enjoyed it. I loved how almost everyone in town had a special magical talent. I loved Evanelle. She just has to give people things they will need. She never knows what these things will be for. Both books I would highly recommend. Thanks to Cat for her turning me on to Garden Spells and The Sugar Queen.

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Our Story: September 24, 1989

How I met my honey. My friend Maureen's mom was moving and she asked if I wanted to help. I think she just wanted to get me out of the house as I was upset because our friend Arlene's 21 birthday was that past Friday. She had been killed by her ex-boyfriend that past June and I had spent most of the weekend crying. So Maureen decided I needed to get out. So off to her moms I went. Little did I know that trip to her house was about to change my life. I arrived and their were 2 men there to help with the move, Ray and his friend John. Maureen did the introductions and then we did some moving. Maureen thought I might like John while her mom thought I might be more interested in Ray, mom won. When we had moved all the stuff we could, we went to Ray's brothers and there I was given my very first ride on a 4-wheeler. I told him I wouldn't get on it and he picked me up and put me on. I really didn't have a choice. Heck I was so scared Ray's niece Jess passed us and she was only 4. From Mel's we went bar hopping (I know not smart) on the 4-wheelers. You should have seen his face when we got to the bar and he asked me what I was drinking and I said Kahlua and milk (he later got me hooked on Vodka and 7up). I guess he was used to beer drinking girls. So he pulled out his wallet and spent a fair amount of money on me, I told him I would pay but, he said no. When it got late we went to Ray's house and warmed up a bit he asked me if I was cold and I said yes, he said my mom has hot water, I said so does mine. That my friends was his pickup line. We still laugh about it today. Then they took me home (my mom had my car). Well the goodnight kiss lasted for quite awhile. Ray told me to meet him at his house after work the next night and I figured he would never remember since we'd all had plenty to drink ( I know again not smart). So I made Maureen go with me and sure enough he remembered and the rest as they say is history. We hit a little snag after a year when he broke my heart into tiny little pieces, but then he missed me, what can I say once he had me he couldn't live without me. We got back together and have never looked back. Not the most romantic story but, it's ours. What I find out that night was Ray is a sweet, funny and caring man who I would come to love with all my heart.

Thursday Things:
1. My favorite pen is the old Bic stick (blue)
2. I read my first dirty book in 5th grade (The Boys in the Mail Room)
3. I collect bookmarks
4. I'm addicted to Flair
5. I think macaroni and cheese is the perfect food

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Feeding Children

Picture of Jilly, cause I can

So Mom and I are having lunch last week and of course in comes a family with a child. Grandma, Mom, Dad and Jr. sit down and order lunch. Jr. doesn't want to give up whatever hand held game he's playing so when lunch arrives Mom feeds him. No problem you say well he was, wait for it, 7 or 8. Yes you read that right. She was twirling his spaghetti feeding him and the whole time he never once put down the game. Now let me tell you that would have never happened at my house with my Mom. Heck she even made me finish eating bologna that I chewed for over 2 hours at least. She never let me spit it out. We took the kids home, she gave me a bath, and as I was going to bed I finally swallowed it. Stubborn much. Ah childhood what fond memories. So needless to say I was just beside myself. I mean if a child of that age is not made to feed himself, or be told that there is a time and a place for games then what are his parents teaching him. NOTHING. Since children are our future, I for one am scared.
Lost at Mexican Train Dominoes last night. I won 7 games and still lost, damn those dominoes.

Monday, June 16, 2008

My Jillian

I love this baby girl. She's the reason I can smile on my worst days. I thank Jeanne for giving me such a sweet, beautiful girl to hang out with, spoil and then go home. I love you both.

What a Weekend

I went with Teeny to the shower. It was a long day. Nicole's great aunt Gloria was a pisser. She said all shower's are boring unless your the one opening gifts. She was bored after 4 gifts, went out to have a cigarette and then didn't come back in. She's 84 I think she's earned the right not to stay if she doesn't want to. We got caught in the nasty storm in Fishkill. I tell you what Teeny's a great driver. I started to feel sick about the bridge and it didn't let up. I felt like I had to throw up. I had a nasty headache too. When we got to Teeny and Russell's I just got in my car and left. Little did I know Ray was across the street at his brother's. Teeny told him I wasn't feeling well and when he got home I was in bed. I got out of bed when he got home and asked if he wanted me to make him something to eat,but that little sweetie said just go back to bed I'll figure something out. I felt better in the morning. Guess I should get those headaches checked out if they keep making me nauseous.
Sunday was blissful. I slept in ,did laundry and read all day. I did start watching the Other Boleyn Girl. I will finish it tonight. Ray and I went to dinner at the Stone Arch with John, Mike, Linda, Hunter, and Harley. We had a nice night. Then it was off to my mom's so Ray could fix her weed eater. Scott came up and had a beer with Ray and they looked over the garden. It's doing really well.
I finished Dirty Blonde. Nice surprise ending. Started Sacrifice. I'm loving it. It takes place on the Shetland Islands. It's very atmospheric. I would love to visit Scotland some day.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

And Yet More Pictures

Me and my honey (I like this picture just not my chin)
Ray and his Mom

Sisters-in-law Robin, Pattie, and me


Me and James Hunter
Kristie and Jilly @ the Christmas parade.

James played this weekend in Roscoe, but I didn't make the show. His music is great. Check him out.
Pictures taken by Jeanne Sager. Check her out too.


Poor Tuckey we went to see him last night as he had to go back to the vet for some more quills to be removed. He looks so sad. He was happy to see us, but not his normal self. Kristie emailed and said he's better this morning.
We had a quiet night. I made Ray the potatoes he likes on the grill and then we went to see Tucker. Kristie gave Ray the oreo cheese cake she made him. He loved it. He does love him some oreo's. We watched a movie at least part of it as Ray fell asleep. It was a nice relaxing night at home.
Almost finished with Dirty Blonde. It's a quick read. Then I have to see what else in my pile of TBR I want to go to. I don't think it will be New Moon. I don't think I'm ready for that one yet. I did take out some books from the library and one of them is just sitting there egging me on to read it. It's Sacrifice by S.J. Bolton. I know Cat read my own books. I just can't, the darn library just has so many good ones.
Ray's garden is doing well. The tomatoes are starting to come in as well as the cucumbers. He's so proud. He even has pumpkins coming in. I don't know how the potatoes are doing as they are under the hay. My wheel barrow planter is doing OK. The rain and wind on Tuesday didn't help much. I checked and watered them last night so hopefully they will start to grow nice again.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

A Big Thank You

To the amazing Jeanne Sager. Who lets me use her pictures for my blog. Thank you sweets. Love you.

Happy Birthday Handsome

Steven, Ray and Nicole Picture by Jeanne Sager

A very Happy Birthday to my honey. He's 43 today. He said he didn't want to go out so I'm making steak on the grill. I love you honey have a great day.
We lost power last night at 8:45 pm. It came back on around 6:30am. NYSEG must have been working their tails off last night. I got caught right outside of Hortonville. Sheets of rain, wind. blowing debris. Not a fun ride home.
Finished Vineyard Chill last night and started Dirty Blonde. I have a camp light that I use whenever the lights go out. It's nice to read in bed by that light. It feels all cozy. Vineyard Chill was a great book. No cliffhanger ending, just a fade into the sunset so to speak. I will miss reading Philip R. Craig's books. He was a great mystery author. RIP Mr. Craig.
Much cooler today thank goodness. We had the windows open this morning to let the cool breeze in. This is much more tolerable then that blasted heat. Hopefully it stays this way for awhile.
I have Nicole's shower this weekend, need to call Teeny and see if she is going. Maybe I can hitch a ride with her. I don't know what to get for the baby so I think I'll just give them money. I know that's the easy way out, but I don't really like shopping for babies. So with the money they can get whatever they want.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Monday Drama

Well I got home from work Monday night to a message on my answering machine from my friend and neighbor that her dog had gotten loose and found a porcupine. I made a few phone calls to see if my nephew and Ray could help. Russell asked me to find out how bad it was, when I saw Tucker I knew he'd have to see the vet. So to the vet we went. He had to stay overnight and is home resting now. He has pain killers and antibiotics. Hopefully he won't be playing with porcupines anymore.
Working the late shift tonight. We're under a tornado watch until 6pm. With any luck we won't get any tornadoes. I know we're suppose to get some serious thunderstorms, but then the heat is suppose to break. Thank goodness for that my poor dogger is just hating this heat.
Almost done with Vineyard Chill. I think I'll read Dirty Blonde next. We got a book order today and man are there some good books in that pile. That's what makes it so hard to read my own book, those book orders come and I just have to read the new stuff.

Monday, June 9, 2008

May Books

The House at Riverton - Kate Morton
Missing - Karen
Free For All - Don Borchert
Shattered Dreams - Irene Spencer (CD)
Murder at the Alter - Veronica Heley

Such a sad little list. I really must get my arse in gear and start reading more.

Heat, Heat Go Away

I'm so not happy in this weather. Just breathing makes me sweat. Thankfully we have AC at the library.
Jilly's party was fun. The kids had a great time playing in the pool and Jilly got some great loot. It was so nice to see Amy. I miss her so much. I sat in the shade and still managed to get a sunburn on my arms. Oh well must remember sun block next time.
Tractor parade. Where to start. Well I got there just in time to see Ray on Mike's tractor. I stayed for a little while then I just couldn't take the heat anymore. Judging from the line of tractors I'd say this was the biggest year ever. Ray's tractor made it through the parade,but had to be towed home. Then the rains came. I was home and didn't get caught in it, but I hear some of the guys did. All in all I think everyone had a good time. More sunburn now on my neck too. I hate this weather. I'm such an autumn girl.
So sad about George. He was a good kid. I hope they throw the book at the idiot who hit him. It's not even safe to walk home anymore. There were 3 accidents in the area this weekend. 3 deaths. It just so sad.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Potrait of Beau

I had this done by a friend for Ray's 39th birthday.
Here's the link. the upper left is our baby. Cynthia is amazing. I love her work. She did such a good job with Beau that I cried when I saw it. I know I'm a sap.


That's what this weekend is bringing us in the Northeast. I personally hate the heat. I like dry, crisp weather. Oh well can't change mother nature.
My wheel barrow planter is all done. Ray brought it home and set it up for me last night. I put burgundy color petunias in. I hope they will fill out nicely. I've asked Jeanne to come and take some pictures for my blog. She won't let me pay her :( I mean really how do you make money as a photographer if you don't charge for pictures. Whatever she's a stubborn German:) love you Jeanne :P
Shopping with Mom after work. Have to browse the toy section and see what Miss Jilly might like. Jeanne won't give me any ideas so I'll have to wing it.
Watched Charlotte Gray last night. It was great. Now I want to read the book. Who knew.
Reading Vineyard Chill by the late Philip R. Craig. It's the last book he wrote before he died last year. This one is so far very good. His series was always fun and entertaining he will be missed.
My eye is fine. Whatever was there is gone. I'm almost sure it was a Beau hair. He's just a shedding beagle this time of year. He was down by the road last night and brought home part of deer leg, yuck, so when Ray got home he took it away from him not a happy pup. Too bad so sad. He then just came in the house and laid on the couch pouting. He's such a baby. It's a good think we love him so much. He has cost us a pretty penny over the years. The most costly was the Tibial Plateau Leveling $3,000.00 boy we really love that dog :) Hopefully he starts to get that he's not a young pup anymore. He just turned 9. I swore sometime Ray loves that dog more than me :)

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Thursday Things

1. I was married with 2 wedding bands (one with diamonds, one gold)
2. I still can't believe Ray picked me
3. I love pistachios
4. My brother got the good hair ( his dark and wavy,mine mouse brown and straight)
5. I love British comedy

Finished Twilight last night. I was racing for the end and then it ended. Don't you hate that. I don't know that I liked the ending. I guess I figured Edward would have changed Bella. She so desperately wants to be like him. I haven't started New Moon yet. I'm taking Cat's advice and letting the first on sink in. I think I just need a break from all the teenage angst.
Strange thing this morning I woke up and my left eye was all red and hurt. No it's not pink eye. I think maybe a Beau hair got in there and just irritated it all night. So I laid back down and when I woke up again it was 9 oops. I have to be to work at 9, my bad. The eye is a little better, it's not red anymore, but it still hurts. If it's not better I'll have to flush it out when I get home.
Mike gave me an old wheel barrow with wooden handles for my flowers last night. Ray's picking it up on the way home. Going to Away after work and look to see what I want to put in it. I don't do to badly with flowers outside probably since nature waters them when I forget. Our bleeding heart we planted for Ray's late sister is not doing well this year. Ray thinks the deer have been eating it. The irises are coming in nicely. I miss the smell of the lilacs. Our tree in the back was beautiful this year.
Ray planted the rest of the potatoes he bought. We didn't even have to water last night since it rained. His tomatoes are doing well.
Crap forgot to take my meds this morning. Note to self remember to take crazy pills or else. Sorry Jeanne stealing you term for the pills:)

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Aunt Cindy

My aunt just got her biopsy back and she does not have breast cancer. Thank goodness for that. I'm so happy for her. Love you Aunt Cindy.


OMG I'm reading as fast as I can. Cat you are so right, it's speeding along. I can't believe this has sat on my shelf unread for so long. I will be devastated if anything happens to Edward. I don't know enough about Jacob right now to care about him. OMG that's all I can say.
Ray planted the potatoes last night. I watered everything before he came home. He's been working on his tedder. He plans on going to Kathy's this weekend.
Tractor parade is Sunday. Ray's driving one of Mike's this year. I might make it down after my hair appt. I'll have to try, Ray was disappointed that I wouldn't be there. He's so silly, like I've never seen him on a tractor before:P
Sat out on the back deck last night and the bugs had a feast. I must have the sweetest skin the bugs just love me. Ray never has a problem he says it's because he smells like oil and gas from his job. I have been using one of those bug off bracelets. It's OK. I just hate getting those yucky sprays all over me. I could use the wipes, but I don't like the way they smell.

Monday, June 2, 2008

The Time Traveler's Wife

Finished it last night. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed it. I wrote some notes to take with me to the book club meeting. Over all it was an interesting read. It did take me some time to get into it. We'll see what the others thought of it.

DR.s office

Wow what a time I had at the dr.s. I had to wait which is not unusual for that office so I always bring a book. While I'm reading this little girl about 2 1/2 comes over to the grandma type lady sitting next to me and puts her hands on this ladies lap and zooms her face in and starts to giggle. The grandma of course thinks this is cute. Then lo and behold the little girl then does the same thing to me. I continue reading my book and not look at her figuring she will leave me alone when she gets no reaction. The father just stands on the other side of the waiting room yelling her name. Oh no don't bother coming over and getting her, just stand there. So I looked at her and kind of smiled and she went away. First of all it's a DOCTOR"S office with potentially sick people in it. Second not everyone thinks your off spring is cute. Please keep a tighter rein on your kid. I'm not asking much I didn't even roll my eyes while she screamed I thought I was being fairly good. So next time keep your kid with you. Thanks.
Weekend was laid back. Went shopping with Mom on Sat. Sunday Ray took me out for breakfast and to Tractor Supply. Then he went to move hay equipment and I read for the rest of the afternoon. Except for the nap I took to try and get rid of my headache. Didn't work so I took some Tylenol.
Ray put some more veggies in last night. He roto tilled the lawn to make way for the potatoes. He's just a little farmer boy this spring. Like I said before I hope something grows or he'll be very upset.