Wednesday, December 23, 2009

No computer until Monday so.....

A very Merry Christmas to you and yours!!!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Thursday Things on Friday

1. I wish I was more spiritual
2. I want to believe in heaven
3. I have never worn a cowboy hat
4. I wish I could sing in key
5. I believe people come into our lives for a reason, not by chance

I'm doing better today, but I still have moments of grief so swift and painful I want to curl up in a a ball. I was told by a very wise woman that you have to let grief have you and that you can come out of it better. I'm hoping she's right.
I put the Christmas tree up on December 10th for Melissa. I bought an ornament for her and I have hung one of my Cystic Fibrosis bracelets on one of the top branches. I think she would like that. I know she would want me to celebrate, I'll just be celebrating with a heavy heart this year. She above all knew what a gift each and everyday is. My heart goes out to Jada. I hope she will take solace in her family and know in her heart that Melissa loves her dearly. So sweet Jada hold Zoe close and know that we all have an angel watching over us ...until we can all be together again.

Monday, December 14, 2009


I'm fine one minute, than I'm in tears. I know how much this would piss Melissa off. She would want me to be strong and not cry, but dammit I miss her. I'm doing the best I can, but sometimes it just plain sucks. I want the pain in my heart to go away. I want to stop feeling like this, only I can't. It's too fresh and I'm in so much pain that I think my heart will never heal. I HATE CF!!

Friday, December 11, 2009

# 57

Grace in Small Things ( For Melissa)

1. Grateful that I had the pleasure of knowing Melissa Smith
2. Knowing Melissa is now dancing with her Daddy and breathing easy
3. The smile that comes to my face when I hear in my head Melissa saying "oh Jennifer"
4. Knowing in my heart that goodbye doesn't mean forever
5. Knowing that Melissa can take a deep breath with no pain, can run, dance and do all the things that Cystic Fibrosis kept her from as the earthy Melissa

Goodbye for now, my sweet, dear, funny friend. Until we meet again. I carry your heart with me, I carry it in my heart.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Goodbye, Sweet Melissa

My wonderful friend Melissa passed away this morning after a 41 year battle with Cystic Fibrosis. Oh how I long to feel one of her hugs right now. Breathe easy and dance with your Daddy. I love you, goodbye for now, my Sweet Melissa.

The Soft Goodbye

When the light begins to fade,
And shadows fall across the sea,
One bright star in the evening sky,
Your love's light leads me on my way.
There's a dream that will not sleep,
A burning hope that will not die.
So I must go now with the wind,
And leave you waiting on the tide.
Time to fly, time to touch the sky.
One voice alone - a haunting cry.
One song, one star burning bright,
Let it carry me through darkest night.
Rain comes over the grey hills,
And on the air, a soft goodbye.
Hear the song that I sing to you,
When the time has come to fly.
When I leave and take the wing,
And find the land that fate will bring,
The brightest star in the evening sky,
(Is your love far from me)
Is your love waiting far for me.
(oh)Is your love waiting far from me....

Friday, December 4, 2009

Praying and Missing

I'm praying for my sweet friend Melissa. She's in the hospital and hasn't been making progress with her CF treatments. I'm very worried about her. Please pray for her to feel better and for the treatments to start working and that she can be home with her family soon. Love ya Melissa.
Also today is the 9th anniversary of my cousin Tina's passing. We lost her so suddenly and with no reason, and it still hurts today just as much as it did 9 years ago. I know that your watching over us and guiding us. Miss and Love you more than I can say.

Thursday, December 3, 2009


Was on vacation for a week then got sick and don't have anything to report. Back to work and still not feeling great. Hopefully will feel like writing here again soon.

Friday, November 20, 2009

November 26th

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!!

Still Can't Find It

Trying to find one movie that will scare me. I've tried just about everything now...Paranormal Activity, A Haunting in CT, The Shining, The Exorcist. None of them have scared me in the least. I don't know what to try now. Oh well guess I'll have to get my scared on from the books I read. I'm reading one right now that's a little eerie. The House of Lost Souls. It's good, but a little slow. I have a few more checked out from the library that are spooky. A Winter Haunting is one and the other is the Murdered House. Also a true story Grave's End. I'll let you know how I get on with them.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

# 56 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

1. Nora, Nora, Nora
2. The great people I work with who make taking time off easy and hassle free
3. Doing the right thing
4. Pumpkin Pie candle (it smells yummy)
5. Beautiful pink color of the sky last night

Thursday Things

1. I don't like sleeping alone
2. I have never lived alone
3. I have lived in 2 states
4. I love living in New York
5. I love living in Sullivan County most of the time

Monday, November 9, 2009

# 55

Grace in Small Things

1. A cold glass of wine or even two
2. Funyuns
3. Ray, Ray, Ray and Ray
4. The sense to know I can't change the people around me
5. Masterpiece Contemporary

Thursday, November 5, 2009

# 54 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

1. Praying
2. My bathrobe
3. Being part of a "global village"
4. All my friends both near and far
5. Our wonderful bank employees...2 banks in our town have been robbed in less then a week and still they come to work scared I'm sure, but ready to serve our community.

Thursday Things

1. I haven't found a movie yet that actually scares me
2. I don't do yoga
3. I like hot chocolate and a buttered hard roll for breakfast ( oh heck I like it anytime)
4. I don't like heights
5. I don't like to drive in a lot of traffic

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

# 53

Grace in Small Things

1. Voting
2. The white clouds of smoke from the chimneys
3. The end of daylight savings
4. Pot roast in the crock pot
5. Christine, welcome to the family sweetie...may you and Russell always be happy

Thursday, October 29, 2009

# 52 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

1. Beau sighing when I pet him
2. Original Triscuits
3. Lunch with Kristie
4. Having my house back in order after all the painting
5. Ray letting me cry last night and holding me until I stopped
6. Laughing until it hurt with Maureen and Missy on Saturday
7. Remembering how much fun being young and living with the girls was
8. Smiling instead of crying when I saw a picture of my late cousin
9. Knowing even when someone is gone they are never truly gone as long as they are remembered.
10. Smiling just because

Thursday Things

1. I have little patience
2. I worry way too much
3. I think way too much
4. I have a pale yellow kitchen
5. I love my friends

Friday, October 23, 2009

# 51

Grace in Small Things

1. The colors of Autumn
2. Reese's peanut butter cup for breakfast
3. Reading, reading, reading
4. My dining room, thanks Kevin
5. Watching Beau from the window and laughing at how intensely he digs

Thursday Things a day late

1. I don't like horseradish
2. I love using my crock pot
3. I make a mean pot roast in my crock pot
4. I don't like Halloween
5. I worry that I will get cancer, die and Ray will not be able to cope ( I never want to think of him suffering.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Thursday Things

Thursday Things with a theme: the color of things

1. I have a red coffee maker
2. I have a red car
3. I have a pale green couch and recliner
4. I have a yellow tub
5. I have a yellow and red crock pot

Thursday, October 8, 2009

# 50

Grace in Small Things

1. Going to bed early
2. Reading in bed this morning
3. Laughing
4. Listening to the wind last night as I fell asleep
5. Autumn colors coming out with gusto

Thursday Things

1. Finally put a pink streak in my hair
2. I love thick books that just suck me in
3. I love Hamburger Helper stroganoff (1 cup=7 points)
4. I started Weight Watchers again (at home, no meetings)
5. I've lost 2 pounds so far

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

# 49

Grace in Small Things

1. A pink streak in my hair for breast cancer awareness month
2. Excitement over the upcoming wedding
3. Eating healthy and exercising
4. October nights
5. That feeling you get when you know your doing something good for you

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Check out this link

Emily has Cystic Fibrosis and is making her way to California from Chicago on a Vespa which is no easy task as CFers have an excess of mucus production, frequent chest infections, coughing and shortness of breath and that's just the tip of the iceberg so to speak. Emily is raising money for research for a cure for CF. She hopes that at the end of her journey she is able to be on the Ellen Show to talk about her disease and the need for a cure. So show your support and post this link on your blog. Go Emily, Go.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Highlight to the weekend

I did have one highlight to the weekend and that was my soon to be niece-in-law's bachelorette dinner. Ray gave me money and told me to have a good time and to have some wine to calm down with, well heck you don't have to tell me twice. So off to my sister-in-law's house since my niece drove us to Friends. We had a blast. Good food and even better company. So the weekend did have a highlight other then our beautiful slider going in, oh and my Mom stopped by with 4 bottles of Sierra Mist Free Cranberry Splash and some chicken wings. So it wasn't all bad.

Owning a home...who knew

Well I have to say this weekend was not what I'd planned. I thought I'd do laundry, some shopping and then on Sunday the slider would go in, sounds good right? Well Thursday night I went to switch the laundry to the dryer and there was water all over the floor, coming from the pipe behind the washer. I woke Ray up and he said yup we have a leak and went back to bed. Friday he snaked the line and it's wasn't this means the septic must need to be pumped out. Saturday he still thinks the line might be plugged so I go to Honesdale with Kristie and he continues to see if he can figure out the problem. Saturday afternoon they bring the door home from the shop that's going in on Sunday at 2. They off load it from Mike's truck and I see it for the first time since Home Depot dropped it off and guess's the wrong door. It doesn't open on the side we ordered. So I have Ray get the paper work from the shop and I call Home Depot. They have the right door there so the boys go on Sunday morning to drop off the door that isn't right and get the one that is. Then Ray rigs a hose so I can at least do some laundry and then goes and gets the Terramite from our nephew to dig up the septic, one look at that when it's open and you know we need to get it pumped out. So now we are waiting for Hopper and Little Russell to come and help put the slider in, they came about 3:30 and the door was in without any problems by 7:30. Hopefully we can get the septic pumped out today or tomorrow and I can get back to do laundry the normal way. I thank God that Ray is able to figure these things out and that we have such great family and friends who help us and make things easier to fix. So who said it would be easy to be a homeowner....certainly no one who owns a house.

# 48

Grace in Small Things

1. Ray being handy
2. Ray saying our septic problem isn't my fault
3. Hopper, Little Russell and Ray
4. Our new slider
5. Ray making it possible for me to do laundry while we figure out our septic

Thursday, September 24, 2009

# 47 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

1. September 24th 1989 I met the man I would marry ( Happy 20 years together honey)
2. Playing tennis on Wii ( great little workout)
3. Raisin bread
4. Our new toilet
5. Having love in my life

Thursday Things

1. I cry every time I watch Extreme Home Makeover
2. Ray's the only man who ever told me I was beautiful (out of the men I've dated)
3. I love to watch Beau sleep
4. I can't believe I'm going to be 42 ( I'm not complaining Melissa, just can't believe it as I don't feel more than 30 at best.)
5. I laughed so hard today that my stomach hurts (3 times)

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

# 46

Grace in Small Things

1. The squirrel yesterday that ran across the road with a huge nut in his mouth
2. People waving to me that I don't know
3. Mindy saying ginormous at my soon to be niece's bridal shower (cracked me up)
4. Dinner out Friday night with my honey
5. Shrimp and clams
6. My friend's Cat and Brock
7. Jeannette
8. Hugs
9. New tires for winter
10. Mom getting home safe from her visit

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Reading or Not Reading

I can't seem to settle on a book as of late. I've tried several and have ended up sending them back to their libraries. I guess maybe it's time to start reading mysteries again. I think that's the problem I've been reading mostly fluff and now that it's cooler and I can concentrate again I can go back to my mysteries. So I ordered a few from other libraries and am hoping that will get me out of my reading slump. Thankfully I've got a wonderful series on DVD that's been keeping me busy....The Last Detective. It's a great British (of course) crime drama with a bit of comedy thrown in. Even Ray's been watching them. Haying is over and he's actually home for dinner and some time with me now. It's nice to have him home again. I miss him terribly when he's haying. We had a busy holiday weekend. Lots of family and friends to see. I was at Mom's on Sunday and Monday as we had family camping for the long weekend and dinner at Kristie's on Monday. It was a great weekend. Full of laughter, fun, food and game playing. Hope your Labor day holiday was great too.

# 45 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

1. Making blueberry muffins
2. The Last Detective
3. All the kids I know having a great first day of school
4. Cool nights sleeping with the window open
5. Brownies

Thursday Things

1. I like fireballs
2. I like cottage cheese with salt and pepper
3. I've never golfed ( and no I don't want too)
4. I've bowled once and almost knocked my front teeth out (don't ask, I was a kid and being silly)
5. I have never participated in a Poker Run (and no I don't want too)

Thursday, September 3, 2009

# 44

Grace in Small Things

1. Melissa and Jazmine are home
2. 3 new books of fluff to read as the weather gets cooler
3. Ray always
4. Agreeing to disagree
5. Reading with my afghan around my shoulders and Beau on my lap, Bliss

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Cool September Nights

I love this time of year. I was watching The Last Detective last night with an afghan wrapped around my shoulders. Pure bliss. Used the oven to make dinner and there was such a cozy feeling in the house. I love the time before we start using the wood stove. I get to use all my lovely afghans that were lovingly made for me by my Mom. There's something about being wrapped in one of those afghans that makes me feel like Mom is right there giving me a hug instead of 5 miles down the road at her own house. Pure Bliss.

Monday, August 31, 2009

# 43

Grace in Small Things

1. All Creatures Great and Small on DVD
2. Dinner out on Saturday night
3. Breakfast for lunch
4. New shoes for work ( the 3 year old ones were killing my feet)
5. He thinks I'm irreplaceable

Thursday, August 27, 2009

People Are Gross

I mean really did you have to leave paper towels with your poo on them in our garbage can for all the world to see, smell, and for me to have to clean up. Even the tons of spray you used didn't hide the smell. Was the toilet paper not to your liking? Huh, what could it have possibly been to make you do that. And to the lady that left her baby's soiled diaper for us THANKS. End rant.

# 42 and Thursday Things

Grace in Small Things

2. Spaghetti for dinner
3. My satin pillowcase
4. A cool breeze as I read last night
5. Ray and Beau always

Thursday Things

1. I've never flown first class
2. I like to buy PJ's 1 size bigger for comfort
3. I like SanPellegrino Aranciata
4. I don't know nearly enough about computers
5. I love to have the window fan running and my sheet wrapped around me

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Ho hum

I miss Melissa! Hope she's having a hella good time with Jada. Can't wait to see her and Jazmine when they get back.

# 41

Grace in Small Things

1. The dew glistening off the grass along the road like a trail of diamonds leading me to work
2. Watching a movie with Kristie and Chelsie
3. Hearing Ray say goodbye to Beau before leaving for work (so sweet)
4. English Football ( Go Man United)
5. Knowing my streak of gray hair will be gone by Friday night

Monday, August 24, 2009

OMG Did Lunch Suck

And I don't mean the food. When I came into the restaurant there was a group of mothers with their kids who were quite loud, but they didn't stay long. So I thought great get some reading done while I eat a slice of pizza. Oh no that was not meant to be. In comes a mother and father and 2 small children.....the little one just screamed most of the time and the older boy I think he was maybe 4 just did not have an inside voice. And he kept turning to stare at me and try to engage me in conversation. Well anyone who knows me knows I like the kids I like, NOT all kids. Sorry that's just how it is. So I did not want to engage in a conversation with this little one. What really got me was the parents thought it was cute that he was talking to everyone and that his brother was using his voice so well. Why can't parents be considerate of others? I understand that kids are not always quiet,but the parents could have at least tried to quiet them down as we were in a restaurant. So needless to say not a good lunch for me.

Fluff reading

So does anyone else have trouble concentrating when it's so dang hot out? I find I can't read the mysteries that I love as I just can't make sense of them in the heat. So I've taken to reading fluff or wallpaper for the mind as one of my friends calls it. I've read some Binchy, Adler, Pilcher, I even tried some Delinsky, but it didn't go well. There's just something about the way Delinsky writes that I don't like. I like books that are written about summer getaways in a foreign land. Strange I know. Most of the Binchy books are of course set in Ireland and Adler's books mainly in any foreign place that's warm, Tuscany, Provence, the Riviera well you get the idea. I just eat them up. Hopefully it will be cooler soon and I can get cracking on all the mystery books on my TBR pile. I just started A Glassful of Letters by Evelyn Conlon it's set in Ireland and follows the lives of the people who live on the same Dublin street. I am only a few pages in and I haven't got a feel for it yet. Hopefully I will like it if not I won't spend more than 25 or 50 pages on it. Life is too short to read books that don't make you happy.

# 40

Grace in Small Things

1. Clams Ray brought me and cooked for me on Saturday
2. "School" shopping with Mom ( she still likes to take me clothes shopping even though I've been out of school for 23 years) Gotta love her
3. Hanging out with family and friends on Sat. at a Pampered Chef party
4. Using my reusable bags for shopping ( I collect them from all over and I just got a new one from Canada thanks to some very sweet friends)
5. The smile on Ray's face when I bought him new work boots

Thursday, August 20, 2009

# 39

Grace in Small Things

1. Chinese food for dinner since it's just too hot to cook
2. My Funny Ladies of British Comedy mug
3. Reading the 2009 Daily Guideposts each morning
4. A cold glass of White Zin in the evening
5. Reading about Greenland and hoping to visit someday

Thurdsday Things

These TT are for Melissa as I think she's been missing them.

1. I love when the sky gets really dark before a storm
2. I want to move to Greenland ( I hate the heat)
3. I like the idea of a veggie garden it just freaks me out to use the veggies of Ray and Scott's labor
4. I like a clean house I just don't like to be the one who has to clean it
5. I've found that when it's hot I have to read fluff books, I just can't concentrate on anything serious

There you are, some more things about me you might not have known.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

ABC's of Ray

Thought I'd do something a little different today. Here are the ABC's of Ray as I see him.

A - Ray is adorable, able to fix anything
B - Ray is bright, bearded, boyish at times
C - Ray is considerate, caring, comforting
D - Ray is dedicated, dependable
E - Ray is easy going, effective
F - Ray is forgiving, friendly, firm, fearless
G -Ray is generous, giving, gorgeous
H- Ray is handsome, handy, honest, hard working
I - Ray is interesting, ingenious
J - Ray is joyful, loves to joke around
K -Ray is kind, kissable
L -Ray is loyal, lovable, limitless
M-Ray is mechanical, manly
N- Ray is noble, nice, no nonsense
O-Ray is open, outgoing, old fashioned
P-Ray is positive, passionate, polite
Q-Ray is quiet
R-Ray is respectful, reliable, ready for anything
S-Ray is sweet, sensible, sound, sensitive, strong
T-Ray is tough, tireless
U-Ray is understanding, unshakable
V-Ray is valiant, vivid, valuable
W-Ray is wise, wonderful, willing
X- Ray is xanadu for me
Y- Ray is young at heart
Z -Ray is zen, zany, and zealous

Monday, August 17, 2009

Real post

I decided it's been awhile since I've done a "real post" so here it is. Ray and I went to John's (his boss) birthday party on Sat. It was meant to be a surprise party, but one of the family members (party pooper) went and told him ( that's a whole other story). We had a nice time. Dennis and the boys from the shop handled everything and I do mean everything: they bought the food, invited people, got all the paper products, all the drinks, set up the tables, cooked, served and cleaned up. The cake was good too. They made it very simple just hot dogs, hamburgers, and salads. Ray did the cooking, Dennis fixed plates for the ones who have trouble walking and Andrew kept everything from buns to salads well stocked. I was very impressed with their catering skills. Makes me have some hope that if I have the hysterectomy Ray will not let me starve. I may not have anything clean to wear, but I know he can grill me some food.
Ray's getting some hay done. He's finally done at Kathy's and now is on Buck Brook. Hopefully he can get the baler fixed it wasn't working well yesterday. It's always something with his equipment. He was a tad frustrated last night and sunburned too. Oh well he's a great mechanic he'll figure it out.
See now that's a proper post. :)

# 38

Grace in Small Things

1. Celebrating John Henry's birthday
2. Not going to the 40th anniversary of Woodstock
3. Seeing Ray in shorts
4. Visiting with Peggy
5. Not giving into the impulse to slap someone senseless

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

# 37

Grace in Small Things

1. The light show on Sunday night ( big storm lots of rain, lighting and thunder)
2. Knowing my friend John's killer has been found
3. Cukes from our garden
4. Grilling
5. The coolest after the rain

Thursday, August 6, 2009

# 36

Grace in Small Things

1. Moonlight filtering through the trees
2. A train whistling in the distance
3. Sound of wood being split for winter
4. Jazmine's laugh
5. The feeling I get when Ray calls me babe

Monday, August 3, 2009

Love this

I saw this on a bumper sticker on my way to lunch....Wag more, Bark less. Love it.

# 35

Grace in Small Things
These graces reflect what we take for granted, well at least I do sometimes, in no order at all:

1. A bed to sleep in
2. In door plumbing
3. Clean water
4. Money to pay bills
5. Food
6. A house
7. A car
8. A job
9. A lawn to mow
10. A garden to eat from
11. Health
12. Health insurance
13. Family
14. Friends
15. Love

Guess when I see how all of this can disappear so quickly it's time to be thankful for what you HAVE not what you want or think you need.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

# 34

Grace in Small Things

1. Reading until 11:30 last night
2. The carved turkey that sits by our Welcome to our town sign being returned (yes someone or should I say several someones stole it...and it weighs at least 300 pounds)
3. Loving my new hair style
4. Thankfully having a window fan to help keep us somewhat cool while sleeping last night
5. Not having any plans for this weekend

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

# 33

Grace in Small Things

1. 2 baby deer and their mama eating next to our fenced in garden
2. Knowing when the world goes pear shaped I have Ray to keep me sane
3. Spending the weekend with family at our annual reunion
4. Getting to hug my nephew Brian whose back from Australia after 4 months
5. Melissa turning the corner from her treatments and hopefully coming home on Friday
6. Finally finding another person who doesn't think longer days are a good thing
7. Laughing so hard this weekend I almost peed myself
8. Lettuce from our garden
9. Starting the Sookie Stackhouse books
10.Anticipating lunch with Melissa and Jazmine next week

Thursday, July 9, 2009

# 32 and Thursday Favorites

Grace in Small Things

1. The little bunny I saw grazing on the bank's lawn
2. Wine
3. Family from Georgia, Massachusetts and NYC coming in next week
4. Ray getting me a pair of noise reducing headphones
5. Ray finally being able to get some of his fields cut

Thursdays Favorites: Candy

1. 100 Grand
2. Heath
3. Hershey's Kisses
4. Kit Kat
5. Snickers

Monday, July 6, 2009

# 31

Grace in Small Things

1. Ray and I holding hands watching TV last night
2. A post card from my nephew in Australia
3. Having a quiet 4th at home
4. Ray sleeping in with me on Sunday
5. Napping, reading, napping reading

Thursday, July 2, 2009

# 30 and Thursday Favorites

Grace in Small Things

1. Waking up to Billy Joel on the radio
2. Ray picking up dinner last night
3. Salt on fries
4. All the wonderful people on GiST
5. Knowing Melissa is getting the care she needs
6. Seeing a friend I haven't seen in 23 years (Bliss)
7. Picking up where we left off and feeling like a few days had past, not 23 years
8. Letting off steam when I need too and feeling better
9. Beau always presenting the belly for a rub at night after his Daddy has showered
10. Planning a quick trip in NYC to visit a friend

Thursday Favorites Theme: Book Genres

1. Mystery
2. Legal Thriller
3. Light romance
4. Biography
5. History (mainly about Lincoln)

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

# 29

Grace in Small Things

1. Kayla's grad party
2. The sun shining through the trees after the rain
3. Aunt Mel on Facebook
4. My nephew Russell
5. Kookaburra Raspberry Liquorice

Friday, June 26, 2009

# 28

Grace in Small Things

1. The smell of freshly mowed grass
2. Ray's laugh
3. Ray thinking of a way to make our sliding screen door work for the summer ( the rollers are bad and it's an old unit)
4. The big sigh Beau gave last night when he laid down
5. Reconnecting with an old friend on Facebook
6. Finishing a great book
7. Starting the new Carlos Ruiz Zafon book
8. Ray's gentle breathing last night (usually he's snoring)
9. Wearing sandals to work
10. Remembering Ed McMahon (Johnny and Ed are together again making all of those who have passed before us laugh)